Earlene's Thoughts
My Thoughts On Any Random Thing That Comes To Mind
Monday, August 16, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
We Both Have the Same Condition
cause i could judge you.
we can play that game.
it won't end well....but we can play that game.
don't think you're "better than me" because you haven't done something i've done.
I don't want to think myself "better than you" because you've done something i wouldn't do.
unfortunately i do judge you. not because i have the authority but because i want to feel better about myself. it's not right, it just happens.
we're both flawed
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
It's been a while...
lately i've been really unmotivated. mostly about work. i mean i got into this job because i ike to travel and because i like office work and planning things. lately work has just become "that thing i do because i have to". I'd like to travel more often, but it's hard when you have no money. grrr! plus it doesn't help that i'm the youngest working in our office by 15 years. it's just frustrating.
how do you find motivation for something you'd rather be doing than being the one to sit on the sidelines and watch the action?
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
I am Voilet
VIOLET |
You surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. You often daydream. You prefer honesty in your relationships and believe strongly in your personal morals.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Ice Cube
Friday, August 22, 2008
Fall Musings
That phrase gets me all nostalgic. I liked back to school shopping, well at least in elementary school when it was fun. I mean being able to get another set of Crayola's with that fresh tip unmarred by any paper. Or getting those new pencil crayons and sharpening them to perfection.
Also the clothes. Let's not forget those. There's been years when i just didn't care what i wore on that first day of school. Like a matching sweatpant set. I actaully remember wearing that the first day back to school for Gr.11 (or was it Gr.10, doesn't matter). The pressure of getting that perfect "first day back to school" outfit seems to only be in high school. NOt so true anymore. Have you seen the commercial where the girl, who looks like she's 7 says "but everyone at school is wearing hoddies and jeans" then there's a shot of everyone at this girl's school wearing hoodies and jeans. This kid is 7!! 7! i mean when i was 7 my "back to school" concern was getting my new markers and stationary, not fashion! If this is what kids have to deal with now for school pressure i shudder at what my kids have to deal with. So not only is there's pressure to have that perfect oufit for when you go back to the locker lined hallways, but there's pressure to go through the exact same thing four months later at Christmas. I mean why! So that the "popular" kids can brag about having the latest Billabong / Roxy whatever, but for what? There's so much politics in high school that it just doesn't make any sense. Yes i wanted to be popular then...that could be a whole other blog entry in itself, so i won't go there now. BUt really what's all this high school "bling" for anyway? To pack away and to never touch again til you kids route through your stuff and you can hear the phrase "You actually wore this?" Ya i have some of that stuff in my basement too. But most of that was either bought on sale, hand-me-downs, or bought at a thrift store. I only bought my first Billabong item last year, but it's a reversible sweater so my excuse for getting it is that 's two for one. BUt i know SO many people who splurge on name brand stuff so much that it doesn't seem like splurging, it's more of a neccessity for them. I don't get it.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Update and also because I'm kinda bored at work...
- finished school @ SAIT, no more of that super disorganized school which costs WAY too much in the first place. Yes, my classes were good in and of themselves and sure i met some great people there but really people? Sait is not so good. They charge you about $200 a semester for student parking AND you get no plug in for your car in the winter, where's the logic in that? And it took me 4 months to get my laptop deposit cause they didn't even try to contact me telling that i gave them my old address. *sigh* oh and residence there? Don't even get me started...seriously just don't...you'll regret it
- i finally moved out of the hectic maze of a city that is Calgary. Thank God for that! Now i'm in Red Deer which I quite enjoy actually enjoy being in. It's close to Scott, the traffic isn't too hectic and the drivers (for the most part) know how to drive. I'm pretty sure i'll be retracting that statement once winter comes. Plus according to SCott there are some people that just shouldn't drive because they don't know what to do in construction zones, but i digress
- i lived in an apartment in rEd deer for about a month or so. me and SCott were able to get into one of the college townhouses so that's where I'm at now, just waiting to be married so that i can share my little home with Scott *sigh*. Seven years of looking forward to this whole thing and it's actually going to be a reality in 8 days. 8 DAYS!!! do you understand me people?!?!?!? 8 days!!! it feels WAY too surreal to be real but it is real!
- i recently got a job working a hotel. it's alright...it's a job to hold me over til i get a travel agent position somewhere. Some people (mostly customers) can be so strange. I'll be finishing one file and putting it in the proper folder then the next person in line will start talking to me about whatever issue they are having with maintenance or their key is not working or whatever. I've already told them "I'll be with you in just a second", which translated means "i can only think about putting about putting this peice of paper in its proper place at this moment, so just wait!" i don't think people get that. Or there will be those customers that just want to chat about, well nothing really. IT's those kind of conversations where the other person just chats to you and all you can say to them is "oh really? that's nice". When those conversations happen i try to be as polite as ai can on the outside, but what i'm really thinking is "i really don't care, what do you want me to say to you?"
- oh, so since I'm less likely to get questioned about this if i put this info on here rather than putting on Facebook (lets face it, everyone checks Facebook, rarely anyone checks personal blogs)....I lost my engagement ring. I know, i know. Super sad :( I've looked everywhere i could for it. I've asked everyone @ work, me and scott searched everywhere for it in my townhouse. Can't find it. I've looked in the garbage, it's too big to fall down my drains, i've checked the sinks...everywhere. I've come to accept the fact that it could be gone forever, which makes me really sad and depressed because it was a very beautiful ring, but what else can you do when you've looked everywhere for it? I lost it last weekend, so i've been looking for days...i think it's just gone...
- on another slightly sad and depressing note...actually i'll just start at the beginning for this one. Way back in March i won a gift card for Swimco. I went to swimco several times in March and April trying on bathing suits, sun dresses, that kind of thing to make sure that i was getting the exact thing that i wanted with this gift card. Plus Swimco is usually out of my price range, so whatever i got out of this gift card HAD to be good. So i found the perfect red one piece that accented all of my curves and hid my squidgy-ness. It was perfect! I also decided to get a very cute navy halter top dress. However in the months of March and April, i couldn't afford this because even though i was working part time, i also had to eat, pay for gas to Red Deer... so i just had to hold off for those items. Finally i got a full time job and i could FINALLY afford this stuff!! I was super excited once i bought them. Loved it!! The opportunity to wear them finally came the day after I lost my engagement ring. Me and Scott decided to go boating with the family. Sounded great! I could work on my tan (which i desperately needed seeing as Scott is now darker than me and usually he's very very white...that and i'm very competitive) and i could show off my hot summer clothing items. So i put on my red swimsuit and went on the boat. Then it came to my turn for a ride on the back of the boat. I chose to kneeboard since i haven't done that in a while. So i got the lifejacket on and hopped off the back. Next thing i know, I'm stuck and have a monstrous wedgie. Yep, i got a caught on a little tiny handle on the back of the boat, which not only did the fabric get ripped up in two places, but it get wedged up my butt. Really really not confortable. So Scott's dad had to unhook me and once i was in the water i assessed the damage. It was bad. really really bad. luckily there were an extra pair of shorts in the boat, so Scott chucked those to me. Unfortunately they were Marc's shorts, so they just barely fit me anyway. Argh. I was super stressed cause not only did i loose my engagement ring but i successfully wrecked the most expensive swimsuit i ever bought. Not a good weekend. Fortunately for me i have an amazing fiance who quickly made me feel better by not only giving me options on how to fix the swimsuit but also just talking to be me and making me see that it could have been much worse. See, this is why i love him. So i accepted the fact that my swimsuit was wrecked. However on a good note, it was still slightly salvageable. i decided i would just get a seamstress to convert it from a one peice into a two piece by hemming the top half to be a tank top and just cutting off the bottoms so that all i would have to do is just go to Walmart and buy cheap bottoms. Problem solved. That night i decided to have a nice hot bath when i got home. So i decided to stop by Walmart to get a bath plug because i didn't have one. They were closed. So when i got home i just had the best bath that i could while plugging the drain with me heal. Needless to say, it was just one of those weekends....
OK, so i think that basically covers my latest life issues. i'm sure i'll update more on my blog, mostly because the computer with Facebook is used up during the week with other staff. So that restricts me to e-mails, the Stoney website, and my blog. Oh and i guess i do have access to Kraft Canada and Food Network websites. So i can give you updates and print out recipes....yep that's all i can do while i'm at work...oh, and i guess i could do my job too ;)
Monday, September 17, 2007
Announcement!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Christmas Wish List*
* I am fully aware that Christmas is over, however a wish list is still a wish list.
Books
- Randy Alcorn-"The Ishbane Conspiracy"
- Sigmund Brouwer-"The Leper"
- Sigmund Brouwer-"Weeping Chambers"
- DCTalk-"Jesus Freaks"
- Liz Curtis Higgs-"Thorn in My Heart"
- Liz Curtis Higgs-"Fair is the Rose"
- Liz Curtis Higgs- "Whence, Came a Prince"
- Bill Hybels - "Just Walk Across the Room"
- Jasper Fforde"The Eyre Affair"
- Jasper Fforde-"Lost In a Good Book"
- Jasper Fforde-"The Well Of Losts Plots"
- Fred Gallagher-"Megatokyo" Vol.1-end of series
- Khaled Hosseini -"Kiterunner"
- Vicor Hugo-"The Hunchback of Notre Dame"
- Kevin Leman- "The New Birth Order Book"
- Message Bible (Purple cover)
- Erwin McManis-"The Barbarian Way"
- Eugene Peterson "Along Obedience in the Same Direction"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Philospher Stone"
- J.K Rowling-"Harry Potter and the Prison of Azakaban"
- Shin Takahashi-"Saikano:The Last Little Love Song on This Little Planet" Vol.1-8
- Angela Thomas-"Do You Think I'm Beautiful?"
CD's
- Apologetix
- Brahms
- Emperor's New Groove
- Georg Goltermann(MUST include "Cantilena from Cello Concerto in A Minor")
- Jars of Clay- "The Eleventh Hour"
- Johann S. Bach (MUST include "Two Bourees from 3rd Cello Suite")
- Kutless-"Kutless"
- Madagascar soundtrack
- Mae- "Destination B Sides"
- MXPX - "The EVer Passing Moment"
- Newsboys-"Shine-The Hits"
- NSYNC "No Strings Attached"
- Out of Eden - "More Than You Know"
- Radiohead- "I Might Be Wrong"
- SisterAct 2 soundtrack
- Star Wars: Attack of the Clones (special edition)
- Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith (special edition)
- Star Wars: Return of the Jedi (special edition)
- Starsky & Hutch soundtrack
Clothing
- Trogdor zip hoodie
Fragrances
- Calgon-"Peach and White Grape"
- Celine Dion-"Belong"
- "Eternity Moment"
- Ralph Lauren-"Hot"
- Paris Hilton - "Can Can"
Gift Certificates
- CD Plus
- Chapters
- HMV
- La Senza
- Le Chateau
- Music World
- Play
- Scott's Parable
- Starbucks
- Suzy Shier
- Walmart
Instruments
- Selmer Alto Saxophone
- Selmer Tenor Saxophone
Movies/DVD's
- Aladdin Trilogy
- Arrested Development (Season 2 and 3)
- Bridget Jone's Diary
- Charlie's Angels
- Charlie's Angels:Full Throttle
- Chronicles of Narnia
- Clone High
- Clueless
- Dilbert
- Emperor's New Groove
- Felicity
- Ferris Bueller's Day Off
- Finding Nemo
- Friends (Season 8,9,10)
- Grease
- Grey's Anatomy Season 3
- Hitch
- Hook
- Indiana Jones Trilogy
- It's a Wonderful Life
- the Incredibles
- James Bond (any)
- Lady in the Water
- Lara Croft:Tomb Raider
- Lion King Trilogy
- Little Rascals
- The Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
- Ocean's 11
- Over the Hedge
- Popular
- Pretty Woman
- Princess Dairies (1&2)
- Ray
- Robin Hood (Disney Cartoon version)
- Scrubs Season 4,5,6,
- Shrek
- Shrek 2
- The Simpsons
- Sister Act
- Sixteen Candles
- Star Wars Trilogy
- Strongbad_email.exe
- Sword in the Stone
- That 70's Show
- VeggieTales: Are You My Neighbor?
- VeggieTales: Duke and the Pie War
- VeggieTales: An Easter Carol
- VeggieTales: God Wants Me To Forgive Them?!
- VeggieTales: Lord of the Beans
- VeggieTales: Madame Blueberry
- VeggieTales: Rack, Shack and Benny
- VeggieTales: The Star of Christmas
- VeggieTales: The Toy That Saved Christmas
- VeggieTales: Where's God When I'm Ssscared
- Whose Line Is It Anyway
- X Men Trilogy
Songbooks/Sheet Music
- Addams Family
- Charlie Brown's Christmas Theme
- Chronicles of Narnia Score
- Disney's Illustrated Treasury of Songs
- Phantom of the Opera
- Pirates of the Caribbean
- The Simpsons
- Tequila
- VeggieTales
Toys/Games
- Cranium
- Kick the Cheat Plush Toy
- Pit
- Settlers of Katan
- Twister
- Uno
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Literature Nerd Does sitting by a nice cozy fire, with a cup of hot tea/chocolate, and a book you can read for hours even when your eyes grow red and dry and you look sort of scary sitting there with your insomniac appearance? Then you fit this category perfectly! You love the power of the written word and it's eloquence; and you may like to read/write poetry or novels. You contribute to the smart people of today's society, however you can probably be overly-critical of works. | |
Social Nerd | |
Drama Nerd | |
Musician | |
Artistic Nerd | |
Anime Nerd | |
Gamer/Computer Nerd | |
Science/Math Nerd | |
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Vague
What's really bothering me you ask? Well to make a long story short, i don't know what happening in my life. No idea. Sure i know i'll be off for camp this summer, I'll be back in Calgary in the fall for my last year of college....then what? Don't know where my next practicum will be, don't know if i'll be getting married next year, don't know how long i have to wait until i get married, don't know if i'm doomed/supposed to be a travel agent my whole life, don't know anything. I know in my head that's the whole point of trust. To trust that God will guide me to where i'm supposed to go. But is belief enough? Is it really? See if i start thinking about stuff like that my head gets numb will all sorts of questions. I figure if i drink engery drinks then i'll just get numb without thinking about stuff. That option might be better. I don't like all this uncertainty and vagueness. Will the end result be worth all this trust in the mist of complete confusion? My head knows to trust God....but does my heart?
I've also been listening to mroe "screamo" music now. That helps to calm the frustration. plus it helps to release the anger that i feel towards the uncertainty.
I really hate not knowin anything...