Time For a Blog While At Home

hello friends. so i'm home now. i should be unpacking all this random junk that i brought over from Calgary. Man i'm SO glad i'm out fo there. I really wish that strangling people was ok. long story short, i was just done with my roommate and her lame excuses to clean. There. That's all i'm saying about that. Now i'm home.

Right now i'm just listening to a speaker from Capernwray and he talks about Thinkers, Feelers and Doers. Now he's talking about the will of God. I was wondering what God's will is for me. ...

I should be unpacking and organizing my stuff from Calgary. But i'm lacking in motivation. Severly. I'm tired too. Even though i napped in the afternoon. Maybe I'll read for a bit and eat a biscuit. I make them today. they're good, especially with butter. Yay!

K, maybe i'll listen to my speaker's MP3 disc then go read and go to bed. Church is tomorow. I haven't been to my home church since Decemeber. This will be nice to see everyone again. It'll be wierd to go from Deer Park Alliance (in RD) to church back home. But more people hug me here. I missed my weekly church hugs. Ok i should go i think a biscuit or two is calling my name...

By the way...this is me driving back into Saskatchewan. I was happy :)

Who Am I?

Today I walked around the park with my bible and my journal. I questioned God about alot of stuff (why do i have to leave my boyfriend for 4 months? Why can't i feel God's peace? Why isn't God comforting me?...stuff like that). I cried alot. God showed Himself to me and reminded me that He's in the little things, like the breeze. Then this poem/journal entry came to me....

Who Am I?
I"m a girl who doesn't know her place in the world.
I'm a jumble of emotions, quotes, and verses
A mixture of what people tell me and what people say about me
I'm a combination of tradition and free thinking
I'm a child of God that doubts and is confused
Is that bad?
No
Just human
That's all I am
Human
I can't make a tree grow, give life to someone dead, I can't make the grass and greener
Would I want that kind of power?
I can barely even imagine that,
and imagination is the part of me that let's me create in my head
God can do those things and much more
He's not confined to what we as humans can think or believe
He's more than that
I wish I could know how much greater He is than what my mind thinks of Him
But what would happen if I knew exactly how powerful He is?
It's a scary thought
For now I just need to be content with what I do know of God.
For now I just need His help to trust Him
I'm a child of God that doubts and is confused
Is that bad?
No, He'll get me through

Another Song Quiz...

Put your music player on shuffle.

Click -Next Song- for every question and write it down.

1. What does next year have in store for me? High of '75-Relient K

2. What does your love life look like? Planet Hell- Nightwish (oh dear!)

3. What do I say when life gets hard? He's Going the Distance-Cake

4. What song will I dance to at my wedding? Combat Baby-Metric

5. What do you want as a career? Super Mario World-DDR

6. Your favorite saying? Upside Down-Jack Johnson

7. What do you think of your parents? One Winged Angel-Final Fanasty VII:Advent Children

8. Where would you go on a first date? Ain't Never Learned-Moby

9. Drug of choice? Incomplete-Backstreet Boys

10. Describe yourself. Don't Fear the Reaper-Blue Oyster Cult

11. What is the thing I like doing most? Letter to Myself-Furthermore

12. The song that best describes the president? Lithium Flower-Gias Soc

13. How will I die? Love-Delerium

14. The song that will be played at your funeral? The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything-Relient K (?!)