Today I walked around the park with my bible and my journal. I questioned God about alot of stuff (why do i have to leave my boyfriend for 4 months? Why can't i feel God's peace? Why isn't God comforting me?...stuff like that). I cried alot. God showed Himself to me and reminded me that He's in the little things, like the breeze. Then this poem/journal entry came to me....
Who Am I?
I"m a girl who doesn't know her place in the world.
I'm a jumble of emotions, quotes, and verses
A mixture of what people tell me and what people say about me
I'm a combination of tradition and free thinking
I'm a child of God that doubts and is confused
Is that bad?
No
Just human
That's all I am
Human
I can't make a tree grow, give life to someone dead, I can't make the grass and greener
Would I want that kind of power?
I can barely even imagine that,
and imagination is the part of me that let's me create in my head
God can do those things and much more
He's not confined to what we as humans can think or believe
He's more than that
I wish I could know how much greater He is than what my mind thinks of Him
But what would happen if I knew exactly how powerful He is?
It's a scary thought
For now I just need to be content with what I do know of God.
For now I just need His help to trust Him
I'm a child of God that doubts and is confused
Is that bad?
No, He'll get me through
1 comment:
I can't wait for you to get home!!!!!!!!!!! Saturday Saturday Saturday.... it will completely make my week. THREE DAYS!!!! THREE DAYS MY FRIEND! I will let you know what Steven ends up deciding about the Ong Bak night... I can't even remember if that's what it is called. He'll have to call nate at Cport, or something, I might end up doing that. But I can't wait! Even if it is an elbow and knees fighting movie, we can eat lots and drink crystal light til we leak Crystal Light... actually, we will leak it. Gross. We could make them watch an egg flick... think? K, I wil talk to you later. Wanna give a call on Saturday sometime and we will make a plan? I think we should go for supper before the movie.. even if the boys don't come. 'Cause those ladies at the Barn keep asking about you. Anyway, I'm going now!! Love you. Amy
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