Thursday, January 13, 2005

I Feel Good-12 Days 'Til New Zealand

hey! Yes i know i should be sleeping or getting off the computer. I can't help it it mean it's a cool compy! i like it alot. Anyway talked to a few people about relationships. One of the conversations was with Scott, my ex. No matter how long ago we broke up and no matter how good of friends we are, there is still that slight bit of "awkwardness". Maybe that's just me. i dunno. He doesn't really tell me his "feelings". Understandable though. Relationships are hard. There's so many things that can go wrong and so many things that can go right. I mean we are all human and we're created differently so of course we are all gonna react to different situations differently. Even though i'm happy with my single life right now, sometimes i can't help wonder "What If?" I'm sure those of you who have had relationships would relate to that. I mean to just wonder.....but why fixate yourself on the past. Understandable, sometimes it's hard NOT to think that way, i know how you feel. Then again it can be almost stressful thinking like that, so that's why I'm happy single now. That way i can just hang out with friends, girls AND guys, and be cool with it. Crazy thing though, ever since me and Scott broke up I've noticed how many guy friends i actually have. Like my camp guys, my band buddies, the Homestarmy, and my church guys too. Kinda of ironic isn't it? Now that I'm single and happy with it that's when i hang out with guys the most. But i'm happy and have crazy go nuts good times with all of them. Ok sleepy time. G'night.

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