Wednesday, November 22, 2006

How do you spell Earlene? S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D

Well I have decided that it's been WAY too long since i've last blogged.

Last week was hell and a half for me. Not only did i have an Operations Final, a Tourism test, a computer assignment due, a business report due on an organzation that I've only heard of once since i started my report, I had roommate problems. And because of these problems I even looked into alternate places to live in Calgary. For those of you who just tuned into my blog, i live with 3 other girls in an apartment style residence dorm. One roommate (we'll call her Bad L) was really getting on mine and my other roommates nerves with lack of cleaning, strange friends of hers, and interuptions of sleep (this was for me cause her room is on the other side of mine). So we had a meeting with our CA and since Bad L didn't show up for our 1st meeeting we had ,we had to schedule another meeting that week so that we could discuss a room contract. Long story short, we ended up making the contract.

I was still really stressed out about having to actually deal with roommates that i re-scheduled an Ikea date with a friend to make a quick trip to my fav place ever.....Scott's house. Even though Scott was busy with school productions til 10 that Friday, i spent the majority of my evening with his brother and sister just talking about my situation and what's been going on in their lives. Plus i talked to his parents. They're so supportive, and it's been really great to have them as an "alternate family" cause my parents live back in Spalding. I did get to see Scott that weekend, and as usually he was the best. He let me cry and called me on being over-reactive (which knowing me is totally true). The more I see/be with him the more i'm convinced that i can't live the rest of my life with anyone else.

So i came back to Calgary, and on my way back i just prayed to God that He'll get me through my roommmate issues and that I'll learn to just trust Him with whatever comes my way. Plus it turns out that i've caught a mild case of stomach flu. Due to what? Stress. I've been throwing up every morning this week, which isn't good, however throughout the rest of the day i'm fine. I just don't eat as much as i usually do cause i don't want to get sick throughout the rest of the day. Plus not only was i stressed about the things i just talked about, i was also stressing about my future.

What aspects of my future, you ask? Marriage. Marriage. Marriage. Why that subject? 2 reasons.
1. I'm going to be a bridesmaid for my friend's wedding this weekend and whenever i see her and her fiance I get anxious about when that will be me and Scott
2. somehow me and Scott's brother Ben got on the subject on how Scott and Ben dicussed how Scott's going to propose. I don't know anything, cause Ben was a good boy and said nothing. I just think it's cute how Scott discussed it with his brother *blush*
See, I've been dating Scott on/off since i was 15 (approx. 5 years) and ever since then, i knew i wanted to marry him. Sounds silly to know who you want to marry at that age, but something deep inside me knew. Now I"m 20, he's 22, we have 1 year and 1/2 left of college and now I've never been closer to reaching that goal. I mean instead of living 8 hours away, i know live 1 and 1/2 hours and it's SO good. and basically i'm just anxious.

Actually to tell you the truth, i had a much longer blog typed up, but somehow only the above got saved. oh well. I did get a few things out of mty system, even if they disappeared into the nothingnes ofthe web. Basically if you're reading this, could you pray for me?
Pray that i find God's guidance and His wisdom through every situation that gets thrown at me.
Pray that i can fully trust Him
Pray that I know His plan for my life.
Prayer in general would be much appreciated.

Once again, thanks for listening to me :)